Toby and Leia, 2004-2018
As January closes out, I am reminded that I should do some kind of memorial.
The truth is, I don't want to. I don't want to remember that they are gone forever.
Their passings took big chunks out of me, that I will never get back.
We grew older, together, over the years; I'm not the same person that I was then.
They were my family. Our daily lives were so interwined. In many ways they were my North Star.
I live with their absence every day. The emptiness is almost worse than the active pain was.
I loved you both. I love you still. Now and forever and always.