Monday, March 4, 2019

The Saga of Shae

... and, well, Not Shae too. Both cats know the feeding schedule - when I leave for work, I put out food and water on the back patio. Often now there is one cat waiting for me.

Tonight, BOTH cats popped up. Meowing. How is that cats not even mine are demanding food from me, I'd like to know?? Plus, until now the food has been put out in the morning, not night. Frankly, I was concerned that they might become too dependent on a renter.

And also, tonight brought a much more significant development: I touched Shae. Really, my fingers grazed her fur, but she walked right up beside me while I was standing back from the food plate. I didn't even intend to try to touch her, but... here is a cat, here are my fingers. It just kind of happened. But that was all, I didn't try to grab her or really pet her, just a fur graze. Not planned but I think it was the right move. Cats must be allowed space, and autonomy. Based on their efforts to communicate with me, I'm starting to think these aren't true ferals, but cats abandoned.

So now there are all kinds of thoughts and emotions swirling in me. I didn't want this - I didn't want more cats, I certainly didn't want to be in the position of handling friendly ferals or long abandoned strays, of maybe rehabbing them into house cats. I KNOW they are both in need of a vet - vacines, no doubt packed to the ears with parasites of all kinds, and who knows what else needed. Not Shae is missing fur too, I saw today. Skin condition, fleas or fighting? I didn't see wounds but clumps are missing.

I know this is selfish of me; I'm not done grieving for my loved ones, and I don't have the resources, especially and including money, to take on two like this. We've always kept a very careful, remote distance, for over a year now. How is that now they are circling closer to me??? Did a neon sign go up and I didn't see it?


12 comments:

  1. Maybe they can tell you're missing your kitties - us cats can be smart like that.

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  2. That is a tough spot to be in. I think it is so sweet that Shae trusts you. I truly think she can't be feral. If you do decide to get them vet care, please do a gofund and I will help promote it. Could you contact a no kill shelter to see if they would take them in? Then you would help, but not have to bring them into your home and heart. XO

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  3. Could be too that they got food from someone else as well and maybe that stopped. We agree with 15 and Meowing...maybe there's a local rescue that could help.

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  4. Kitties know before humans do. That's all I will say.

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  5. I agree with Summer too and it is completely the truth.

    There is an ethereal bond there, perhaps. But in any case, they need food and you are a loving foster parent so to speak. XXX.

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  6. That is a big development between Shae and you! You are not selfish...you are doing what you can do.

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  7. I think you have "cat love" energy that they are responding to. Think of it as honoring your cats' memories by helping them.

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  8. we haza sayin in TT ewe prob ablee due knot wanna heer;
    when one cat leevez.... him all wayz sendz a nother ~~~~~ ♥♥♥♥♥

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  9. Sometimes we aren't the ones who choose.
    KZK

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  10. Uh oh, I finks these Kitties are worming there way in!!!!
    Loves and licky kisses
    Princess Leah xxx

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  11. Oftentimes, cats sense what is going on with us humans before we even realize. Thank you for caring.

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